xcreepx.

I had a horrible dream last night.
That makes me regret last night.
I woke up crying.
and its been a half hour
and im still tearing up.
Fuck, I just dont know.

This song holds quite alot of meaning behind it.
If you take the time to read into it.














I'm on my knees
only memories
are left for me to hold

Dont know how
but Ill get by
Slowly pull myself together

Theres no escape
So keep me safe
This feels so unreal

Nothing comes easily
Fill this empty space
Nothing is like it seems
Turn my grief to grace

I feel the cold
Loneliness unfold
Like from another world

Come what may
I wont fade away
But I know I might change

Nothing comes easily
Fill this empty space
Nothing is like it was
Turn my grief to grace

Nothing comes easily
Where do I begin?
Nothing can bring me peace
Ive lost everything
I just want to feel your embrace

I kept track of the things that kept me from sleeping

-Wanting to beat the shit out of Emily. (sorry Nate)
-I havent heard Ben sing in a while, and I miss it.
-I dont want ANOTHER boyfriend. I just want the one I had.
-I attract Jackasses.
-I slip back into my bad habbit when I get hurt.
-I havent cried yet, Im totally numb.
-9 months.
-What I did this weekend, and how I didnt do it for myself.
-I need a cigarette.
-Nick Burks, Right? wow.
-Love is a joke,
-I let myself become weak.



Fuck boys.
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I feel like Im wearing a sign that says fool on it.
Like I knew this would happen
and I did...

Why do you keep hitting yourself with a hammer,
because it feels so good when it stops.

Love is a joke.
It makes you dependant of another person
weakens your defense, makes you open
to any sort of attack.
All is fair in love and war, because
love and war are one in the same

I feel sick, and betrayed.
Everythings falling apart.